Sunday, December 14, 2008

The best story you will hear this year

Taken from Luke2 NIV

The Birth of Jesus
1In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. 2(This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) 3And everyone went to his own town to register.

4So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. 5He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. 6While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, 7and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

The Shepherds and the Angels
8And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ[a] the Lord. 12This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."

13Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."

15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."

16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.

Jesus Presented in the Temple
21On the eighth day, when it was time to circumcise him, he was named Jesus, the name the angel had given him before he had been conceived.

22When the time of their purification according to the Law of Moses had been completed, Joseph and Mary took him to Jerusalem to present him to the Lord 23(as it is written in the Law of the Lord, "Every firstborn male is to be consecrated to the Lord"[b]), 24and to offer a sacrifice in keeping with what is said in the Law of the Lord: "a pair of doves or two young pigeons."[c]

25Now there was a man in Jerusalem called Simeon, who was righteous and devout. He was waiting for the consolation of Israel, and the Holy Spirit was upon him. 26It had been revealed to him by the Holy Spirit that he would not die before he had seen the Lord's Christ. 27Moved by the Spirit, he went into the temple courts. When the parents brought in the child Jesus to do for him what the custom of the Law required, 28Simeon took him in his arms and praised God, saying:
29"Sovereign Lord, as you have promised,
you now dismiss[d] your servant in peace.
30For my eyes have seen your salvation,
31which you have prepared in the sight of all people,
32a light for revelation to the Gentiles
and for glory to your people Israel."

33The child's father and mother marveled at what was said about him. 34Then Simeon blessed them and said to Mary, his mother: "This child is destined to cause the falling and rising of many in Israel, and to be a sign that will be spoken against, 35so that the thoughts of many hearts will be revealed. And a sword will pierce your own soul too."

36There was also a prophetess, Anna, the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher. She was very old; she had lived with her husband seven years after her marriage, 37and then was a widow until she was eighty-four.[e] She never left the temple but worshiped night and day, fasting and praying. 38Coming up to them at that very moment, she gave thanks to God and spoke about the child to all who were looking forward to the redemption of Jerusalem.

39When Joseph and Mary had done everything required by the Law of the Lord, they returned to Galilee to their own town of Nazareth. 40And the child grew and became strong; he was filled with wisdom, and the grace of God was upon him.

Sunday, November 30, 2008


Stolen from Renee

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?                                       
It was Micah

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
No I dont, I wish him well though.

3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Im sure it was champage, my uncle used to slip it to me at Christmas

4. What was your FIRST job?

5. What was your FIRST car?
1999 ford escort

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Teo, since he is what woke me up

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mrs Hale.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
I started to fly when i was really young so maybe Cali

10. Who was your FIRST best friend and are you still friends with them?
Misty , and yes I am

11. What was your FIRST sport played?

12. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
Im sure it was Mistys

13. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?

14. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My moms!

15. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
I let the dog out

16. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
New Kids on The Block or Paula Abdul

17. FIRST tattoo or piercing?
piercing when i was a baby, tattoo was at 16

18. FIRST foreign country you went to?

19. What was your FIRST run in with the law?
I was a troubled teen, It was when i was 14

20. When was your FIRST detention?
7th grade

21. What was the FIRST state you lived in?

22. Who was the FIRST person to break your heart?
um, really break it ? It was Chris

23. Who was your FIRST roommate?

24. Where did you go on your FIRST limo ride?

I have never been

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

First Ultra Sound pic of baby kausek

Friday, November 21, 2008

God Wow he is wonderful

Wow, God is powerful. How many people can say they can rely on someone though thick and thin, someone who will love you and always have their arms open for you. Someone who will forgive you for your wrong doings and can provide you with everything you have ever needed. I can say that I have that person in my life. The person is the lord. The most powerful spirit. I still have a long journry ahead of me, and long walk but I can say I am so glad I have God to do it with. I have decided that this blog is going to be about my journey, my questions, how I dealt with the word submit, how i am learning about finances, and one of the best books a person could read. Every womens battle. I will re read this book chapter by chapter..

I leave you with this, the beginning is slow, but wow. This video brings me to tears, and it reminds me just how much god loves me. I leared something tonight when I was listening to the chaplain. Its very simple. Either be in Gods wrath , or Gods love. I dont know about you, but I prefer to be on Gods good side.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


5 minutes for mom is having a food contest, and I have to say this is my fav pic of mateo. That child just couldnt stay out of the cat food, and as you can see the baby gate didnt help!
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Monday, October 6, 2008


So I always post about Miss Kennedy. Well her mommy Renee is celebrating her Happy Blog Day!!! Go over and visit, and WIN.. Yes she is giving away gifts for us.. Her day, and we win.
Head Over here

Monday, September 29, 2008

Jesus Can I have a Snack??

So I have a paper due today.. Mateo asks for a snack. I told him he would have to wait a sec, mommy is almost done with the paper. he says fine.. Comes back about 5 minutes later, and asks again. Can I have a snack. I said wait Mateo I am almost done.. Below is how it took place

Mateo- Mommy can we pray
(Who am I to say no, so i stop my paper and look at him)
Me- Sure Mateo we can pray
(Mateo is now putting his little hands together, and closing his eyes, and I am thinking wow I raised him well)
Mateo- Dear Jesus blah blah ( i don't understand what hes saying)
Mateo- Dear Jesus, can I please have a snack. AMEN!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Create a Pepper

I remember creating a pepper last year, I also remember why I did it. It was Miss Kennedy, who was in and out of the hospital with cancer. I am happy to say this year, I will be creating a pepper, because Miss Kennedy is out of the hospital "PRAISE GOD". Here is the info

Create a pepper for St Judes

Here is my pepper!!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

We have arrived


They packed and moved our stuff last Thursday and Friday. The plan was to sleep on our lovely air bed untill sunday night.. But by midnight Friday, I couldnt sleep, neither could Brian so off to a motel we went!! We spent Sat and Sunday cleaning, than went out to dinner with friends.. let me tell you what, the military has taught my husband well on packing. We fit TOO much luggage, a dog and 3 cats into the cobalt!

We cleared housing fast and were on the road by 1:30. By 2:30 I was in a gas station bathroom, cleaning out the cats cage ( chole doesnt travel well and pees and poos in her crate) Gave them more dope, and we were back on our way.. ( on a funny note, as i put the cats back into the car, Nathan said "mom the cats are wet" I said yeah they are pretty pissed at me, He replies " Was that suppose to be a joke" HAHA )Stopped in Marrieta Ga, so Brian could relive the past, and than to South Carolina. The hotel people were super nice..

Called housing First thing tuesday, and by 10 we were moving in to our 4 bedroom HUGE house ( the outside sucks but oh well). By 11, the movers were here with our stuff, we spent wednesday swimming at the water park here (5 slides, a lazy river and a bunch more) than kept unpacking.

We only have a few boxes left. Brian starts in processing Monday, Than starts his TDY Friday so we can drive 12 hours to get Nathan home to Michigan!

Thankfully Nathans dad has been really cool about the whole thing.

So that will be a fun 12 hour trip, the boys us and the dog. I am very anal about my dog, and will not just leave her anywhere. So i figured why the hell not bring her with. Teo will start school the 25th , im not sure how thats going to go cause its only 2 hours a day( here at the preschool on post) but his IEP (special needs plan) says he needs 18 hours a week.

Oh and one thing i learned here.. Frogs are cute, and there is sand EVERYWHERE, dirt does not exist down here..

Next month we will be looking for a second car, wish us luck. And Brian has approved me getting a new couch ( i hate mine).

They jacked up our pay, Housing gave us the first months rent free (weeeeeee) and our other housing stopped the allotment Aug 1st, but the damn money hasnt gone though to the pay check yet, so nik-bit, it will be on Sept 1st, in full. ( at least i hope if not there is always Salle Mae)

Thats the fun of our trip!!

And I leave U with another random picture

Monday, July 28, 2008

Hate moving

The stress of this move is killing me, we go from having a house, to not having a house.. to oh having a house again but than we are broke. On post housing at Fort Jackson is horrible. Ive seen it, and it scares me. So in order to destress I leave u this picture of my dog with a Build a bear hat on.. Shes not happy, and this is how i feel!!

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Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Please go here, and let Renee and family know that you also have prayers going up for Miss Kennedy

Monday, June 30, 2008


I lost my Uncle this past Feb, I miss him. Growing up I was not the best kid, I was down right a BRAT!! Yet he loved me and spoiled me when my mother was being a good mom, or being to harsh. He was diagnosed in Dec 2007 with cancer in his liver, the plan was simple.. He was to get chemo strait to his liver and all would be well.. There was no talk of dying, Im not sure it was even an option. I told my mother in january when he wasnt doing so well , that if anything were to happen that she was to call me and I would be right there.. Well 12 hours right there since I dont fly and its a long drive.. She called me thursday night 5:30 January 31st.. she said "Christina, you may want to drive up here" My mother is not a drama queen , she will wait until the last minute to tell me something, when my grandmother was in the hospital she didnt tell me , but than again i didnt need to go up there, so while my mother is not a drama queen , I AM. So anywase,

by 6:00 we were on the road, We got a hotel in Kentucky around 2 a.m and were up and at em the next morning. With my mother calling me every hour telling me to hurry up. I got the hospital at 4:30 Friday Feb 1st 2008 I had 3 hours with him, until we lost him.. He took his last breath as we heard the train whistle in the back ground.. he spent his life on the rail road.. We lost a good man that day.. but it wasnt over than, Feb 5th 2008 as my husband i prepared to celebrate our 5th annviersay, We lost our grandfather to cancer also. I do not have any pictures of my grandfather, as he did not become my grandfather untill my mother and step father married , but he never treated me different, i was family to him.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

air show

I can now add the air show to my list of places that I can no longer attend. I love the air show, always have. The blue angels will put the biggest smile on my face.. However, while Mateo did ok with the noise of the planes, I could not approach the jets, with out him screaming. I swear the world must have thought I beat the child. You know those kids in Walmart that are screaming NO NO NO NO NO NO, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. That was mateo.. Mateo is a very good child ( no i am not just saying that because he is mine) he truly is a good child, its very rare that I get back talk.. but today.. nope the autism was not left at home, it came with us. And of course this upset me, im not really sure why since I kinda of knew his would happen, but add 1000000 people, 99 degree weather, and flying dust, and it makes for one cranky mommy. So i took him and Nathan home, about 2 hours into the show.. and i couldnt shake the cranky mommy , soo I am ready for bed. It didnt help that a panic attack snuck up on me while stuck in traffic to get into the show.. Thankfully the serinty prayer usually helps me fight them.

On a funny note, we took Nathan to the dentist the other day, and Mateo had to go potty.. So we walk into the bath room, and it was decorated with striped wall paper, deep reds and greens.. Mateo yells as loud as he can mid stream " Mama we are peeing in side a tissue box" Hmm what, than it hit me, and he was right.. it looked like we were in one giant tissue box.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Ive come to the conclusion

That kids poop laundry..

Yep yep, yes they do.. I clean and clean and find more laundry.. you would think i had girls with the amount of times outfits get changed, but no i have boys...

I know we have the Green people out there, but oh well i really think towels should be like big paper towels. The refuse to use the same one. I am on my second load of towels today..


Put your swim trunks on the side of the tub, does NOT mean, leave them on the floor, toss them on the bath room floor, and it does not mean put your dry shorts on top

Shower time-
Means, yes you must wash all the soap out of your hair, that thing called a towel rack, yep that's where they go.. While i am sure its fun, its not OK to slip and slide in the bath room with wet feet.. You must brush your teeth for at least 30 secs if not more. I need to see that you have tooth paste on your tooth brush, and YES YOU MUST DRY YOUR HAIR AND BODY BEFORE GETTING DRESSED!!!!!!!!!!


When i say pause it i don't mean at your connivance, or when Jesus comes down to earth, I mean NOW..

Exercise for moms-
Each time you bed down to pick up towels , or that random sock, tighten your abs, TRUST ME you will fell the burn

I have missed having these guys, while i joke about all this stuff i really missed it

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Things I have learned/noticed

You think I would have learned that the taco bell drive though is no good. Every time we go ( does not matter what store) our order is messed up. The biggest issue was when we ordered a kids soft taco, and it came back hard taco.. While to most people this seems small, to me its a difference of whether or not I enjoy a meal with out giving the Heimlich maneuver though a meal. You see even though my child is 4, he still can not eat chips or hard tacos.

I have also learned today that I am not a mother who includes all food groups in all her meals, but my kids do eat healthy ( milk and coco pebbles count right ...kidding)

I also learned today I am not the perfect Army wife... When given a deployment I can handle the world, when hubby works late for a week strait, i freak out because WHO IS GOING TO EMPTY THIS DISHWASHER!!
Last deployment I went though 5 sets of silverware, I will clean up child or animal puke, i will stick my hand in a garabge disposal, but I WILL NOT put the silverware away.. Not gonna happen..

I agree with this child.. DOWN WITH THE SPOONS!!!!

I also learned today that wow i have changed.. On our way to Taco bell for our refund, I am jammin away to Third Day ..
Yes me, Tattooed wife who loves to say Frick ( no really I do say Frick) jammin to third day ( I had to retype it to make sure, 5 years ago this WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ME) Any who, listening to my God music and this car pulls up next to me and than I was forced to listen to F this and F that ( not the word frick either) or N this and My N that.. Not only was i forced but so was my child.

I am sure I will learn more though my life, and I would love to post more, but my Mateo is attempting to ride the dog, So I believe that is my cue to go

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

The word R

I dislike the word retarded. Typing it even bothers me. I dont care for this word.. People use it instead of swearing, but to me I take offense. My 4 year old son is autistic, I had a lady once say to me " oh hes autistic, so that means he retarded" Umm no.. Hes quite smart he can speak 4 languages and he knows sign also. So when some one says, oh he is being retarded, really what do you mean?? Do you mean someone with special needs?? Someone who acts differently than you do.. Please chose your words.. I know it sounds silly, but you can even say Wow he is acting a fool, or acting wierd.. or something. You think you sound silly but at least you are not hurting someones feelings.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

To Judge or not to Judge..

Before I was a mother, I would look at the kids screaming in the store , and say to myself "wow what bad parents"

When I became a mother to my 2 oldest, I thought to myself " Wow those parents just cant control their kids, look at how good mine are"

When I hate Mateo I thought to myself, Wow I feel for that mother, Im sure she needs a break, and she is trying as hard as she can.

Who am I to judge, maybe the parents arent up to par, but maybe its something else. Maybe their child is autistic, maybe ADHD, maybe there is alot of stress in the family. It is not my place to judge.

I have learned to try and live like this each and everyday of mylife, and to see things from others point of view. When a lady cuts me off when driving, I think, well maybe she has to get to the hospital.. When a person is rude, I think, Well maybe they found out some bad news today, and arent taking it to well.

It is not my place to judge. My husband once told me that let God be the judge, by consuming myself with the problem solver, I am only hurting myself.

So I have let God be the judge, and let me tell you. Life is just so much easier. I dont worry about much anymore, I know God will take care of it. When a person is rude, or cuts me off, I say a prayer that their day gets better.

On a funny note though, Brian and I decided that we were going to make a bumper sticker that says "Hey stupid people, STOP HOGGING GOD"
You know when you ask for the unrealistic things, the material things, and he doesnt answer.. Well besides the fact that I dont need it, I have chalked it up to stupid people.. The people taking on their cell phones and almost drive off a cliff, yep those people, there are so many ( I am one of them sometimes) that God spends most of his time saving them. :)

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

First things First

I can only imagine the pain this mother is feeling. Also what about the CHILD. How cruel can one be, when an adult takes a shot at an adults feelings. This is a form of child abuse, no matter what anyone says. I know enough to let Mateo play with the big kids, even though it pains me. But when they pick on him it takes everything for me not to go and yell to their parents and SCREAM " Teach your child manners, teach them that everyone doesnt look alike, or sound alike". Mateo is harmless and he is a very well behavied child. I have never had any complaints about him EVER.

Anywho enough of my blah blah's here is the story

PORT ST. LUCIE — Melissa Barton said she is considering legal action after her son's kindergarten teacher led his classmates to vote him out of class.

After each classmate was allowed to say what they didn't like about Barton's 5-year-old son, Alex, his Morningside Elementary teacher Wendy Portillo said they were going to take a vote, Barton said.

By a 14 to 2 margin, the students voted Alex — who is in the process of being diagnosed with autism — out of the class.
Melissa Barton filed a complaint with Morningside's school resource officer, who investigated the matter, Port St. Lucie Department spokeswoman Michelle Steele said. But the state attorney's office concluded the matter did not meet the criteria for emotional child abuse, so no criminal charges will be filed, Steele said.

Port St. Lucie Police no longer are investigating, but police officials are documenting the complaint, she said.

Steele said the teacher confirmed the incident took place.

Portillo could not be reached for comment Friday.

Steele said the boy had been sent to the principal's office because of disciplinary issues. When he returned, Portillo made him go to the front of the room as a form of punishment, she said.

Barton said her son is in the process of being diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, a type of high-functioning autism. Alex began the testing process in February at the suggestion of Morningside Principal Marcia Cully.

Children diagnosed with Asperger's often exhibit social isolation and eccentric behavior..
Alex has had disciplinary issues because of his disability, Barton said. After the family moved into the area and Alex and his sibling arrived at the school in January, Alex spent much of the time in the principal's office, she said.

He also had problems at his last school, but he did not have issues during his two years of preschool, Barton said.

School and district officials have met with Barton and her son to create an individual education plan to address his difficulties, she said. Portillo attended these meetings, Barton said.

Barton said after the vote, Portillo asked Alex how he felt.

"He said, 'I feel sad,' " Barton said.

Alex left the classroom and spent the rest of the day in the nurse's office, she said.

Barton said when she came to pick up her son at the school Wednesday, he was leaving the nurse's office.

"He was shaken up," she said.

Barton said the nurse told her to talk with Portillo, who told her what happened.

Alex hasn't been back to school since then, and Barton said he won't be returning. He starts screaming when se brings him with her to drop off his sibling at school.

Thursday night, his mother heard him saying "I'm not special" over and over.

Barton said Alex is reliving the incident.

The other students said he was "disgusting" and "annoying," Barton said.

"He was incredibly upset," Barton said. "The only friend he has ever made in his life was forced to do this.

St. Lucie School's spokeswoman Janice Karst said the district is investigating the incident, but could not make any further comment.

Vern Melvin, Department of Children and Families circuit administrator, confirmed the agency is investigating an allegation of abuse at Morningside but said he could not elaborate.

SOURCE: http://www. tcpalm. com/news/2008/may/24/30gtteacher-lets-students-vote-out-classmate-5/

I cannot stress it enough.... GET AN ADVOCATE FOR YOUR CHILD!!!!!! No matter how "wonderful" things seem to be going in your IEP. Please, get an advocate!! I will help you with this information, who to contact and most advocates are funded by the state so they cost you nothing! No school should allow this kind of behavior! No child is "left behind!!".

Monday, May 12, 2008

Im going to jackson and thats a fact

Well now, we got married in a fever, hotter than a pepper Sprout,
We've been talkin' 'bout Jackson, ever since the fire went.
I'm goin' to Jackson, and that's a fact.
Yeah, we're goin' to Jackson, ain't never comin' back.

Yes we are going to Fort Jackson. Im not sure how I feel about this. I mean yay Brian may not deploy since he will be TRADOC... however. its scary there. Very dirty on post. So we will move off post, but once again, you never know the good or bad areas.. I hate PCSing.. it bothers me. While this post is so very small, we have a family here. A good christian family. There are not very many people around our age, and while Jackson will have that, Im just afraid I wont make that many new friends. I like my christian family.. While i have tons of friends who are not Christians, i want to keep some in my life.
The army wants us to report in 20 days. HAHA we dont even have orders yet, so I am really not sure on how that is going to work. Ill keep ya updated

Monday, May 5, 2008

Give Bone Marrow

From now until May 19th, you can sign up to give Bone Marrow for free!!!! Please go to and click register ( left box).

I dont want to hear any excuses, none at ALL!!! You may be thinking, oh well Im scared, I dont like to be put under.. Blah blah. Let me tell you something.. If all you have to fear is being put to sleep for a bit, you have no complaint. There are mothers , fathers and others out there who fear for their childs life, who are dieing from Cancer, and your donation could save their life. So Stop reading this and GO GO GO..

If you need another reason try this. In the past year I have read of a little boy dieing in less than 8 months from a brain tumor, i have seen a little girl go into remisson because someone wasnt scared and donated bone marrow. You want to work a miracle, sign up to donate!!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

makes me smile

A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'

When I say...'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin" I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.'

When I say...'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say...'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.

When I say…'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

When I say…'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect, My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say...'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain...I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

When I say...'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow

Monday, March 24, 2008

Autism is hard

It is so hard to let mateo do his own thing sometimes. I worry he will get hurt mentally or physically.

Saturday we went to two easter egg hunts.. The first was at the chapel.. about 30 kids , i let him go on his own to get his eggs, he did a wonderful job, i was proud of him and myself for letting him go.
Than we went to the big hunt. Id say over 200 kids.. They had it sectioned off by age groups 0-3 years 4- 6 years and 7-10 years. While my heart said to let him go to the 0-3 years i said no he is 4.. i will let him go to the 4 year olds.. Well the way they ( MWR) worked the 4-6 was they roped off the base ball field, put some eggs out there ( not very many) and the kids were to go out there alone. my 4 year old out with 6 year olds.. i didnt like it, but i sucked it up and let him go.. By the time he got into the field most of the eggs were gone..but he did get one, he put it in his basket, ran and it fell out ( along with a huge chunk of my heart ) Than about 3 minutes later the big kids were taking the eggs out from right in front of him .. Too little eggs too much chaos.. Than he had a break down he started to cry in the middle of the field, i yelled at brian to go get him, when something happened that made me want to cry.. To little kids his age, stopped and started emptying their buckets of eggs into his. HE stopped crying.. Its so heartbreaking to see my kids get hurt... but nathan is smart enough to handle his own, and jared is big enough.. but mateo, he just doesnt have the mental capacity, and it hurts to watch hurts to see that he is so smart in somethings, yet so far behind in others..

I was talking to nathan on the phone the other day, and when i hung up Mateo was upset that he didnt get to talk to nathan, so i called nathan right back up and asked him to speak with his brother.. Normally in this situation older kids will go "noooo i dont wanna " which in turn hurts mateo, and hurts me.. But nope not my kid.. He says ok.. Mateo talked to him, made NO sense at all, and Nathan just talked to him and made him happy. I thanked Nathan.. Who said yep ( kinda like umm thats my brother why wouldnt i talk to him lol) I have to say that Myself and Sandee are pretty damn good moms..and the kids has 2 pretty good dads.

I dunno it just really sucks...