air show

I can now add the air show to my list of places that I can no longer attend. I love the air show, always have. The blue angels will put the biggest smile on my face.. However, while Mateo did ok with the noise of the planes, I could not approach the jets, with out him screaming. I swear the world must have thought I beat the child. You know those kids in Walmart that are screaming NO NO NO NO NO NO, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. That was mateo.. Mateo is a very good child ( no i am not just saying that because he is mine) he truly is a good child, its very rare that I get back talk.. but today.. nope the autism was not left at home, it came with us. And of course this upset me, im not really sure why since I kinda of knew his would happen, but add 1000000 people, 99 degree weather, and flying dust, and it makes for one cranky mommy. So i took him and Nathan home, about 2 hours into the show.. and i couldnt shake the cranky mommy , soo I am ready for bed. It didnt help that a panic attack snuck up on me while stuck in traffic to get into the show.. Thankfully the serinty prayer usually helps me fight them.

On a funny note, we took Nathan to the dentist the other day, and Mateo had to go potty.. So we walk into the bath room, and it was decorated with striped wall paper, deep reds and greens.. Mateo yells as loud as he can mid stream " Mama we are peeing in side a tissue box" Hmm what, than it hit me, and he was right.. it looked like we were in one giant tissue box.